Still alive

I haven’t been blogging lately because I’ve had a very busy week but I promised that I wouldn’t let this blog die!

Things have been going rather swimmingly lately, although I do feel as busy as I have always been. Circle K-wise, I’m still reviewing the past year, filling out OSKI awards, thinking about all the projects and all the things we’ve accomplished in the past year. Stepping back from board hasn’t been bad at all. I guess now I appreciate why we have banquet meetings. In many ways, it’s the past board’s last gift to the club as well as a gift from the club to the past board – a last chance for us to work together, shine, and slowly step away.

In Nerdy News, I finally received my new laptop yesterday! No wobbly leg this time and as far as I can tell, there aren’t any problems. Before ordering my system I had a lot of concerns about using 64-bit Vista. I’ve heard some bad things about Vista (actually…mostly bad things) so far, it just seems like a sexier-looking, more anal version of XP. It’s not really user-friendly at all and I’m disappointed that it’s not more customizable. But after getting rid of many of the “new and improved” functions such as search indexing and UAC which constantly asks for my approval before I do anything, it’s working out well.

I’ve been resetting my priorities lately. I just want to enjoy my last days as an undergraduate. School can wait at the back of the line (along with laundry and ASUC elections).

View from the top

So a lot of people have been asking me how it feels to finally be done with Presidency. I can definitely say it feels bittersweet. On one hand it's such a relief. When you're going through difficult times, in order to stay motivated there always has to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I guess this is the end of the tunnel for me. It's such a satisfying feeling to finally look up from my work and see all of my achievements in the past year. It's like climbing Mt. Everest and finally looking out from the top. 

On the other hand, there is definitely a little bit of sadness. I remember reading an article a few years ago about how sadness is almost always associated with a feeling of loss. I think that is undoubtedly true in this case. Along with my title will go many feelings that I have come to appreciate throughout the year. 

I'm going to miss the way my chairs come to me for advice, even when I don't have the right answer. I'm going to miss spending busy nights working on Circle K, knowing that my performance will have a big impact on others. I'm going to miss the way people look at me when I tell them I'm President. I'm going to miss leaving board meetings feel tired but satisfied that I had accomplished a lot that day. I'm going to miss the challenge of pulling things together, even when it seems all odds are against us. Most of all, I'm going to miss my board. 

I know for a fact that eventually things will go back to normal. I know that there will come a time when I won't be able to recite the Circle K calendar on request. But you have to understand that Circle K board has been my life for the past 3 years. For years I woke up in the morning thinking Circle K and went to sleep at night dreaming Circle K. I guess we'll have to be a little patient. Just as the saying goes, old habits die hard.